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Artist: the Avett Brothers
Album: Emotionalism


It took me a really long time to like this band. I am stubborn, so that has a lot to do with it. Also, I just wasn’t in the right mindset to really get them. I don’t know if that makes sense to you, or if you think I am weird for saying that, but it’s the truth. If I am going through a happy period of my life I don’t find myself really wanting to pay much attention to a sad, mellow band, and conversely, if I am miserable, I have no desire to listen to the newest pop-punk outfit to hit the scene.

That is not to say that I ignored this band completely. That is not the case at all. Id give them my attention when they would pop up while listening to my itunes on shuffle, and a few of their songs stuck out enough that I would find them frequenting my mixes, the ballad of love and hate being a regular for a while. But I just couldn’t sit down and listen to the entire album straight through. It didn’t help the situation that the song that I knew from this band wasn’t on this album, because that gave me even less of a reason to listen.
I am a lot less happy than I was for the last ten months. Having no job and being perpetually single will do a lot of damage to ones level of happiness. If I were a video game character, id be closer to losing a life than I would to defeating the enemy at this stage in the game. But, if I were a video game character, I would be freaking awesome and probably garner some attention from someone other than my parents, and in that, I would probably be happier. Weird how that works, I guess.

Anyway, all this being less happy business lent my ears towards more mellow, sad stuff, and gave the Avetts the chance that they so rightfully deserved. It is probably unfair to categorize the Avetts into the “I’m sad and lonely” group, because they really don’t fit that bill, it just took me some time to realize that.

As im sitting here listening to this album again, I just paid attention to the lyrics of the song the weight of lies. if you don’t know this song, I suggest taking a minute and checking it out. This is one of those times where a song finds me exactly when I need for it to. You cannot run from who you are or the actions you have taken, because all of that will catch up to you. Running from your mistakes will just make things worse for you in the end, just face them and get through it. I think that might be something I need to hear more than anything right now. Not that I see my plans as running away from mistakes, but getting out of here means getting out of the corner I’ve painted myself into, and maybe that’s something I need to work out without skipping town.

What I really want to write about is the stuff that is going on in my brain. I’d like to get it out, on “paper” and see if someone else can make sense of it, because I feel like I am losing what little sense I had left. If you stick around and continue to read this blog, provided I continue to keep writing, you may very well witness my complete destruction into a ball of waste. Stay tuned!