365 project"it keeps getting stranger by the day"

145.

artist:various
album:American Pie soundtrack

i have been driving around for the last two days listening to this album and trying to figure out what it was that i wanted to say about it. i guess i don't really have to say anything, i mean, these are my rules and i did complete the listening part, which is what this is really about, but what fun would this be with just album titles? exactly.

i still, though, don't know what i want to say. this CD does that time-machine thing that i know I've mentioned before in this blog. as i was singing along to the songs, i might as well have been up in the on-air studio at WMCX 8 years ago, because that's where i felt like i should be. I'm fascinated by the human mind. i cant remember most things anymore, but play me a song and i can recall the colors of the dials on the radio station in which i heard those songs most. its bizarre and rather amazing.

I'm itching for a change. the summer is upon me and being jobless for the next few months opens up a world to me that i was terrified to venture into before. the things that i wanted to hang around for last summer are complete...what's the point in waiting around for the beach if the only person that is around to go is four? i mean, i love that four year old very, very much, and he is the main man in my life, but arguing with a four year old can be tiresome and sometimes i just want adult company.

I'm weighing my options. trying to figure out what is the best move now. I've been praying A LOT, and like i told Rachel today at work, sometimes i feel like I'm screaming my prayers because i don't feel like I'm being heard. some of that fell together today. we will see. its really tentative, but this could be what i need to get myself together.

if that's the case, and if this all pans out, ill think of this album in the same regard as that concert a few Novembers back where all of this seemed to align for the first time.