365 project:"i've got my life in a suitcase, im ready to run, run, run away"

42.

artist:Copeland
album:you are my sunshine

when this album came out, i didn't have any money to buy it, or a way to dl it, so i asked someone to do the latter for me. i don't think i listened to it once after she gave it to me. i seem to recall it being on my ipod, though, but i never really paid a whole lot of attention to the songs, finding myself skipping them quite often when the popped up on shuffle.

then i was out and found it on vinyl, so i picked it up. that was the moment that i paid attention to this album, and better late than never in this case. i see the entire album as the story of someone who is lost. this is especially evident in the day i lost my voice (the suitcase song) and the idea of having everything ready to go without any warning, to just be able to pack your few belongings and disappear again is something that i find myself wanting for quite often, actually.

I'm in a bad place today, mentally. theres a lot going on in my head and i have absolutely no idea how to begin to sort through what I'm feeling, let alone any idea how to make sense of any of it. on days like today, when i feel completely alone, i find myself turning to my Copeland albums. Aaron's voice embodies the pain he's been through in his life, i think, and i makes it accessible in a way that words alone couldn't. and with lyrics like you'd break your neck to keep your chin up, you just know that he gets it. without having to explain a word, he gets it.

on the vinyl there is a cover of you are my sunshine that brings tears to my eyes every time i hear it. its not on the CD, and i haven't been able to find an mp3 download of it either, though i didn't search very hard, but i know theres a video up on YouTube that's totally worth checking out.

i don't name Copeland when I'm asked to list my favorite bands. they don't really even come to mind, but in all reality, they are right up there with the big three bands. I've seen them more than most other bands. i always made it a point to catch them when they came around. i have all of their albums, including the eps. i talked about the track jacket in my other Copeland entry, and how i still wear it every day (yes, I'm wearing it as i type this entry), but what i didn't mention was that its literally falling apart from all of the wear and tear I've put it through. i just noticed this week that the frayed wrist cuff is starting to tear away from the rest of the sleeve, and there is now a big hole in it.

if for some reason you haven't taken the time to listen to Copeland yet in your lifetime, i highly suggest you take some time to do that, but ill warn you now, if you aren't already sad before listening, you might find yourself in a very mellow mood afterwards, so it might be best kept for a day that you are already feeling down.

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