365 project"rescue me from hanging on this line, i wont give up on giving you a chance to blow my mind"

84.

artist:jars of clay
album:the eleventh hour

the eleventh hour was the last jars of clay album that i really had any interest in. i bought a few after this, but never really bothered with them.

somewhere during my senior year of college i just kind of fell apart. i don't know what triggered it, if anything, or maybe it was everything, but i just didn't care about anything anymore and kind of withdrew from everything i was previously involved in and interested in.

i was still doing our radio show on Saturday mornings, but was otherwise a ghost around the station. i was bitter and frustrated at the way things had ended the previous year, and really felt nothing but disdain for almost everyone at the station. I'm surprised sometimes at how much i still resent some of those people. its a terrible way to feel and I'm working on it. that happened so long ago i should have been over it years ago.

i stopped going to church, too. we had been going to a Baptist church my junior year, but once i dyed my hair purple and pierced my ears and nose and tongue by senior year i got more dirty looks than i cared to have to deal with, so that was the end of that. i started spending my weekends at home with my parents and just driving up to college on Saturday mornings for the radio show. this is something else I'm sure i need to get past, but when a body of people that are supposed to exude God's love treat you in a less-than-loving way, its hard to put it behind...at least for me. its something that i need to make a conscious effort to work past.

i don't know what any of that really has to do with this album other than through all of that stuff, i was still spinning jars of clay pretty regularly. i have definitely gotten away from the "Christian Music" scene, for sure, but i do still occasionally pull out a jars Cd or a five iron disk. those two bands made a big enough (and importantly, not-too-cheesy) impact on me during my "CCM-or-nothing" phase that ill still listen.

I'm actually going to see jars in a few days. I'm not sure how excited i am about it. i don't know any of the multitude of opening bands. i haven't listened to a new jars album since 2005 and even then it was only once or twice. I'm sure ill take lots of pictures though, and have some thoughts on the show one way or the other when i return. keep your eyes peeled.