365 project:"its hard to believe that i am getting by on so little from you"

day 20.

artist:dashboard confessional
album:swiss army romance

i figured that since im in this rather awful funk i might as well give into it fully and listen to some dashboard tonight. theres really nothing better for an already depressed girl.

its kind of weird that as much as i love this album, i dont really have an emotional attachment to it. i have story after story about the places you have come to fear the most but theres not a whole lot clanging around inside of this head of mine when it comes to swiss army.

there isnt a song that i still go to for mixtapes. there isnt one that still gives me chills when i hear it. thats not to say that i dont like the album, because i absolutely do, rather, though, that i was actually surprised that i owned it, to be honest. i was going through my cds the other day trying to pick something and i found this one and had to ask myself where i even got that cd from...a question that i still havent answered.

starting sometime during my senior year, i decided that it was too mainstream to like dashboard confessional anymore, so i stopped listening. just cut them out. id bash chris carabba whenever the oppertunity was given. id say things like "i liked him better before he had the band" or whatever pretentious line was appropriate at the time. yet while all of this was going on, i was still listening to the moon is down by further seems forever with stunning regularity. what can i say? my pretentiousness was not terribly sensible.

i connect a lot more to this album at thirty than i ever thought i could have at twenty. not that at either age i was ever spending my life on the road and with a significant other who was also on the road at seperate times, but i feel like the stories chris tells on this album are more adult real life situations and less "taylor swift" (note: i am not knocking taylor by any means. i adore her and am a fan. she just sings more teen romance stuff and not adult gotta-pay-the-bills stuff).

i know that when i get around to places ill have a lot more to say. as far as this album goes, though, im having more trouble concentrating on getting through this entry than i ever did getting through any homework assignment ever. if i dont end this now, its going to turn into a discertation on why more kids need to go through the scared straight program.